| Thursday, January 26th, 2006 |
| 10:35 pm |
this one is for lins!
i have neglected lots of stuff since i moved to louisville. when i lived in south dakoty, i had lots of free time and spent way too much time on the internet. i am enjoying living in louisville. i love my roomate. i HATE my job...but i may be getting a job at netflix. nothing is certain. my roomate is engaged and her and her feller bought a house today! they close in three weeks and then we are moving to a house. i will get to live there like a year and a half. soooo.. it is pretty exciting! the new gossip cd is awesome. i have not had any crushes since i have been in louisville. i miss lexington and have thought about moving back a back. i miss a lot of people. i need to be out of there for a little bit. maybe a long little bit! everyone should come visit me in louisville! xoxo |
| Saturday, October 8th, 2005 |
| 10:48 am |
dang me!
i drank almost a whole bottle of rum in no time last night! dumb! i just did that a few days ago too! i guess i am living up my last days in south dakota! ha. i had fun last night tho. i am really going to miss some of the kids here. louisville is going to be fun tho! living with melissa is going to be fun! i love her apartment. she is being super sweet too and making this a fairly stress free move! i am half way looking forward to my bus ride. it is going to take me 32 hours to get from spearfish to louisville! craziness. i have a 3 hour lay over in chicago from 6am to 9am. hopefully there will be some place to go near the greyhound station. i am up for an adventure in chicago. |
| Thursday, October 6th, 2005 |
| 1:43 pm |
oh yeah life goes on....lalalala life goes on
Leave me your name and 1. I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written |
| 11:46 am |
dumb.dumb. dumb.
i told the boy i like that i liked him yesterday. he likes someone else :-( i had never done that before. i dont think i will do that again! boo to having crushes! i need to stop doing that! grrr! i am really going to miss the kids in spearfish! they are awesome..and fun. ky is where i need to be tho! right now anyway. louisville will be fun. |
| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005 |
| 9:43 am |
don't the oh...twist
so, i think i am moving to louisville next week! i am excited! i miss everyone! xoxo |
| Saturday, September 24th, 2005 |
| 1:20 pm |
ha ha laugh it up...on the other line with the police
so i have lived in south dakota for over a week now. ok, well, i am not happy at all. it could be the fact i have no car. being in a small town with no car is hard b/c there is no public transportation and fun is in other towns anyway. it would also be better if i had a tv and dvd player or the internet. i have listened to every cd i own twice. i would be working on art projects but one of my boxes didn't make it until yesterday. thanks u.p.s.! it was also the box with my blankets in it...and well, it gets fucking cold in south dakota! i am working on a zine called "why the fuck am i doing in south dakota?" this state is anti-vegetarian! there are signs! i really miss all my friends back home...terribly. i have talked on the phone up to six hours in one day! i don't even love talking on the phone. i have a big crush on a boy too (not in south dakota or ky) and all this time to sit around is making me a bit overanalytical...which most people know i do anyway....so let's just say it is bad. i mean south dakota is pretty. i already have a few friends here. i am not anyones first hang out choice..but it has only been a week. at my first party the police showed up and all the kids got minors and they let the five of us over 21 go. what a great start! i did go to a show. it was pretty rad. what the kids want and madeline. there are some good shows coming up. i cannot wait to see the hudson falcons. it has been a few years since i have seen them. i think i am going to move back to ky in january. maybe to louisville. time and destination are subject to change. anyway, i will stop whining now. it was my choice to come here. |
| Tuesday, July 19th, 2005 |
| 6:45 pm |
always guilty
everything is blah right now. i had a lovely weekend i am sorry that is over. i slept for like eight hours total from friday to monday...but i slept 13 hours last night. the reddmen are sweet,sweet boys. i was still a freaking weirdo around them proving just how socially inept i am. when i am around new people it is pronounced how much i shit talk myself. i feel groggy and tired and like i lost something today. i had lunch with my friend lisa. she is moving away this weekend. i am super sad about it. i also went jean shopping. where the fuck do you get normal jeans? i want to know. they are all fucking flare or boot cut. i just want dark,straight leg jeans. if anyone knows where they are let me know. i found out this weekend my mom is getting married. i feel kinda weird about it. i dunno. i hoped she would someday but it seems so fast. he is a nice guy. i guess i just hate change sometimes. everyone in the world seems to be engaged. even my grandma is engaged! oh well, i cannot wait for my trip to south dakota! |
| Tuesday, July 12th, 2005 |
| 3:16 pm |
it's about not wanting to miss you..it's about wanting you dead
blah. i hate how conversations about things from the past can make you so upset. how they can take you back over two and a half years and you can feel the stomach acid in yr throat, the disgust! i think he is a terrible person. i am sad i ever doubted it. don't try to make people into what they are not so you can feel better about the past. let shit be shit. i am done! i feel horrible today. a mix of cramps, regret, and self hatred. it will pass. i am melodramatic sometimes. i know. sometimes i am overly positive. i just feel like some stuff is out of reach forever. i also hate how shitty people's first impression of you can make you feel bad. some people don't get my sense of humor. i think i am somewhat getting out of the mindset that everyone should like me. that is impossible. i am learing i don't have to like everybody. it feels good. three weeks from yesterday until i leave for south dakota!!!!!! |
| Wednesday, July 6th, 2005 |
| 8:47 pm |
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| Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005 |
| 4:44 pm |
i don't want
blah. i went to the saddest funeral today. it was right up there with my dad's! i booked my first plane ticket yesterday! it is to rapid city south dakota! i am very excited. i wish it was already august! i am sooooo afraid to fly. i hope i can still afford my seattle trip. i need to get away from lexington. maybe forever? |
| Thursday, June 16th, 2005 |
| 4:58 pm |
sweet revenge...what?
anyway...so my livejournal thing is always realy depressing. hmmm..i guess i never write in it when i am happy. which would indicate i am happy a lot cos i don't write in this thing much. but i am not really happy most of the time. oh well, sorry so depressing. i would tell an inappropriate jesus joke now but that sort of stuff doesn't travel well over the internet. so yeah. |
| Wednesday, June 15th, 2005 |
| 4:17 pm |
old dreams die slow
yeah...so i have been incredibly emotional lately. i suck! got old dreams swimming around in my head. having dreams about pointless shit. i don't want to remember. anything. well, i just want to remember the sound of my dad's voice but i am losing that. he smelled like cigarettes. i love the smell. so i am sitting here now in this public library wondering why i am so sad about pointless crap. i have an ok life...well i mean i am not doing much really. i guess not much makes up my day to day. but i hold on the the idea that i am going to do something one day. i am going to actually start a band or get that environmental or social justice job. i am sad about these things but i do nothing. i guess that is the kind of person i am. i wasn't always. i don't think i will stay this way. i just got tripped up by nothing working out the way it was supposed to...well i guess the way things work out are how it is supposed to be...but this is not what i wanted. i wonder if i am just jealous...if that is what all of this boils down to..but then i cannot think of who. i think i know but no. i keep trying to change things. trying to hide from this but it isn't going away. it will be ok. *sigh* |
| Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005 |
| 8:24 pm |
been thinking good good things about you!
ok..so i suck. i am never going to be happy. i have figured out why..so now my pain is not aimless. i need to move. i really do. i have so much floating through my head i can barely breathe. get fixed or die! feelings are lame! |
| Tuesday, February 8th, 2005 |
| 8:00 pm |
picking up the pieces
today started out as one of the worst days i have had in forever. i spent hours crying and not even melissa or charity could talk any sense into me. then, magically the day was rescued and i cried b/c i was happy in the first time in i don't remember. i feel like 2 large weights have been lifted. i am gonna have to start getting my uncle x-mas cards! i am such a fatalist about my own life. i often times wish that someone would just follow me around and help me make decisions and talk some sense into when i am being crazy. people should be rough and blunt with me. it is what i need. i am too big of a mess for most to handle. i am trying to focus on the good right now. i have a new sense of hope (it is probably fleeting). i feel good about everything in my life at the moment. even with the fact i have an impossible crush. hurts so good. i may get a second job...any suggestions? Current Mood:  happy |
| Monday, February 7th, 2005 |
| 6:38 pm |
CRAMPS!
i love my friends..the past few days have made me happy. i am going on 3 trips over the next 4 months! yay! i miss a lot of people tho..you should all call me cos i am bad at calling people. |
| Saturday, January 8th, 2005 |
| 7:51 am |
if my uterus fought my guts i wonder who would win?
so yeah, i am at my friend lilly's house. she will prolly be alseep forever. i hate it that i always wake up so goddamn early. she is moving to seattle in a month. i am incredibly jealous. she is trying to convince me to move away too. i could totally join one of those programs and have health insurance and get to be away from here for a year. that soounds so awesome to me. i need a change. i have lived in lexington for 5 years. i have lived within an hour radius of where i was born my whole life. i dunno. i have a badass roomate and an awesome apt. blah. this week has sucked ass! hopefully next week will be better. i hope it doesnt rain on my drive home to lexington. |
| Thursday, November 11th, 2004 |
| 7:26 pm |
everything sucks today
nothing is right. i need for everything to change. soon. who wants to run away with me? |
| Thursday, October 14th, 2004 |
| 8:45 pm |
i feel really fucking sad today..i am the fucking degenerate! i swear to god there is something wrong with me. not normal. |
| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004 |
| 8:43 pm |
i think i am a waste of space. i wanna go see mirah on october 8th..someone should go with me. |
| Thursday, August 12th, 2004 |
| 7:08 pm |
yay!
mike lives with me now..and it is super fun.:-) |
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